Priorities

Everyone is going to say that studies is the top priority now. Yeah, right.
I don't think it is for me, okay at least it is not exclusively in the top priority.There are other things as well. I always thought I could cope with my friends, work, and studies, but somehow it just occurred to me that this is no longer the case.
I feel like I've neglected my friends really badly, not being there for them when I should be, when good friends should be there. I see how my bestie is going through such a rough patch, I don't know how to help her. I see my friend being injured, I can't find time to go visit her. I am such a lousy friend, really. I don't even know how to juggle my time to even go get things done, eg get my laptop fixed, finish off the things in my to do list.
So damn tired. I wish school would end soon, really. Not that I'd want it to end forever now, but just for now, I need a breather so bad.

Insensitivity

I never expected things to turn out this way, now it just feels as if I am maligned.
However, it's nice seeing how sweet my friends are to me, and I can really feel how much faith they have in me. It may not be much, but thanks guys, you guys really helped a great deal.

fucking tired

*Angsty post

I am so damn fucking tired. I don't know why. Frankly, did I even seem like I'm doing much for the projects? No. I am just so mentally tired and upset with everything. I hate having project submissions, I hate all the fucking deadlines, I just dislike all these. It makes me upset, and angsty. Working with people, might not be my forte after all. Somehow, I just find fault in whatever they do. (Though I do justify myself and I do make sense in finding their faults) It's just annoying.

*OK.

Two more months to the end of the school term, and to the commencement of SIP. I am kinda looking forward to everything actually. Sigh, I can't stand school now somehow. ): I need my sleep, I need my time, I wanna go play, I wanna travel, I wanna be free.

On a side note, graduation trip with 6teen may materialise next year weehoo ^^
P.S: How are you? I hope my mistake hadn't cost us whatever we may have had.

Amazing holiday

It's been the most amazing two weeks ever.

Talents@NAA
Winning first place was really unexpected, and I really enjoyed my experience with everyone from the other polytechnics. I made new friends, and also bagging the Best Live Pitch Award and TP's Young Poly Leader Award, I was really excited with all that happened.
Thanks to my white shirt army: Salvo, Yuens, Minglee and Honghwee, and my family. For coming down to scape to support me, making me a huge board, and for giving me the loudest cheers than anyone had that night. You guys were awesome max

DrumZout 2011
An entire week on intense training, coming back to school for 7 days a week, and spamming likes and links on facebook walls, I am really really really proud of Salvo to have won 2 Awards for the night, Most Liked Percussion Group, as well as the First Prize for Tertiary Category. It was a dream come true for all 13 of us, and I was so touched by everything and everyone.
We thouroughly enjoyed ourselves throughout the competition after we performed, and yes I saw how awesome everyone were. I love you all so much for that <3
I have said repeatedly: Thanks to competition team for making this one of the most amazing journey in my Salvo life, and also for toughing the one weeks out with me.
Also to everyone else: Thanks for your continuous support and well-wishes.
Most importantly: It made me realise how important Salvo is to me, and it made me never to regret to stay on when times were tough.
Salvo, 我爱你！

P.S: On a side note, I don't understand how you could be so dense. Urgh.

camp aftermath

Damn tired after the camp.

But still, I just want to shout out to everyone though I think nobody reads this space anymore, I'm really really really proud of the seniors. You guys have made this camp one of the best one that I ever had. Thanks to all of you <3 And also never forgetting to lend me your support when I went for the competition. You guys are one of the best things that happened to me in my poly life <3

Eventful week

The past week has been...amazing. Really.

Things has been going awesome and it really took me on a whirlwind ride of emotions.

Firstly, I received my interview calls, so that was two interviews this week, and they both went pretty well (:
Next, I got into the semi-finals, followed by the finals for Talents@NAA contest, and yes I will be fighting it out with two other contestants next saturday!
Third, celebrated CY's bday with a blast and yes I know she really likes her present (:
Fourth, for me to know, for you to find out (:

Yupp, it's been a great week and frankly, it all feels so surreal. I don't know if they all actually happened. Haaah, okay fine I know they happened, but it's really nice to see my work paying off. (:

Now there's the competition, projects, and internship left, before I officially end my school year. Well, I am looking forward to it (:

Please do not be mistakened.

I know no one reads this space anymore, but I need to make myself clear.
I got pissed off yesterday because I was angry at his self-righteousness, and that he doesn't get his facts right before saying all that bullshit.
It wasn't because I was speaking up for Marc, frankly, I am not too interested at what transpired between them yesterday. I am more angry at the fact that he thinks we are a group of blind dogs who doesn't know how to judge for themselves. And that he still thinks he knows how we feel.
alright, end of story, stop thinking that I am speaking up for Marc, I am not.

Year 3, Week 3

It's barely the start of Year 3 and I'm dying already.
Plus the hot hot weather ain't helping much.
And I'm sick.
How great is that combination?
And I've already started on projects. at Week 3. Wow. I'm amazed.
Tata for now, dying soon.

Haven't updated this space for months.

I practically can see the cobwebs in my blog.

Hmmmm, everything has been going rather smoothly, with all that frenzy with Salvo, be it Dreams concert, Drumzout, and recruitment. Holiday was well spent with one of my favourite group of people, as well as catching up with the rest of my friends.

school has already started, and frankly speaking, I'm not really looking forward to anything this sem because it's really hectic and I don't know if I would be able to cope. I realise my stress coping mechanism seems to be failing on me.

Still, I've gotta stay positive! I've got great groupmates, and yeah still toughing it out with the Salvo people ^^
We had done a  great job during recruitment, and yeah, it's gonna be busy and all with Drumzout, but it's gonna be awesome! :D

Hope to update this space more often, and I promise to come back with more pictures. For now, my current favourite song:

Wish You Were Here- Avril Lavigne

I can be tough
I can be strong
But with you, It's not like that at all

Theres a girl who gives a shit
Behind this wall
You just walk through it


[refrain]
And I remember all those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

[chorus]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

I love the way you are
It's who I am don't have to try hard
We always say, Say like it is
And the truth is that I really miss

All those crazy thing you said
You left them running through my head
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

All those crazy things we did
Didn't think about it just went with it
You're always there, you're everywhere
But right now I wish you were here

[chorus]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

[bridge]
No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, Oh, Oh,

No, I don't wanna let go
I just wanna let you know
That I never wanna let go
Let go, Let go, Let go...

[chorus]
Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Here, Here, Here
I wish you were here

Damn, Damn, Damn,
What I'd do to have you
Near, Near, Near
I wish you were here.

I just hope you knew.

Ramblings

It's almost the end of the semester. Time for some reflection I guess.

Results:
Received a couple of my grades for the past 2 days, and I'm pretty surprised by my results. Did surprising well for CRS, and not as great as expected for CSIT project. Looking back at the review, I'm a little disappointed at myself for the CSIT project :< I guess I wasn't meticulous enough to have overlooked the phrasing and context of the project. This was our downfall as pointed out by my tutor and I really really wished I had looked it through more thoroughly, perhaps it'd have pulled up our grade by a little ):

People:
Came to the realisation that many people are not what they seem for the past few days. Was really annoyed at a certain someone when he did something really ungentlemanly and it really annoyed me so much. :/ I shan't say anymore here, since I want to forget about it, but it's just that as long as that fella doesn't change his attitude in treating the people around him, I'm sure he'll never survive in the working world as well as keeping his friends around him.

Others:
Over the CNY period, I had been busy with my presentations and FEM submission, alas everything's over and I'm really looking forward to the end of exams so that I can be freeeeeeeeeeee :>
On a side note... 我很想念你 ):

Chinese New Year

It's a relatively quiet CNY this year. Didn't go visiting on the first day, but quite a number of people came. My favourite aunt came over for lunch and we did a whole lot of catching up. Ended up asking her to go to KL with us because she wanted to catch Super Show 3, and we'll prolly go with 6teen. So it's an adult with a few crazy fans! LOL! I'm pretty looking forward to the KL trip though! :D
Only went to Edwin's house on the second day. Well, I have to say I received quite a few unpleasant surprises on that day.
Edwin and Eunice are going to go to Taiwan for 3 years, which means I won't see them around for a really long time, and Edward's expecting a baby soon. I know having a baby is a good thing, but I'm just going to say that this baby has sort of arrived too early for him and his girlfriend. :/
Oh wells, still an addition to the family is still something to rejoice about! Let's hope the baby won't have tiny eyes like Edward's :D

Then went over to Er Yi's place, and it was soooooooooooo boring. Worst of all, I was so damn annoyed with that pesky cousin. He has no manners, he's impolite, he's proud, and he's stubborn. I don't know what else to say about him except I'd really love to give him one tight slap. Urgh!

Well but went to Tomoe's house as well, did some catching up with her as well as Eehui and Chengmun who went. Haha ended up there was only the four of us and we chatted as usual (: Tomoe may be going to KL with us! Yippee :D

Right, so basically that's it. 3 more presentations to clear, and also 1 more individual submisison, and one project execution and i'm mostly done for the sem (: Pretty happy about it :D

One more submission to go!

Phew, managed to survive the 2 submissions and 3 tests, I only have 1 more submission to go, and I'm free! Well other than presentations, I'm pretty much free for the rest of the semester (: The thought of having my holidays makes me happy enough to hop around already :>
Sheesh, I've been in a really really really bad mood for the past few days because of many many stuff. I think it's the stress, and lack of sleep. I still have few more days to go before I can enjoy sleeping in!
I really miss the TP campus so much. ): Especially the food! Food in vivo ain't exactly awesome, and it's so expensive. :/

Waiting for my group members to send me their stuff, but I'll prolly go to sleep first and waking up early tmrw to finish the work since I doubt I'll be able to do a good job anyway. My bed looks way more tempting than the stupid laptop. Speaking of laptops, my freaking fujitsu died on me. Damn annoyed that it has to be down on this week, and I can only hope that it'll be automatically fine soon ): Meanwhile, I have to use Daddy's laptop :/

Wish I could make all these negative feelings go away ):

Time for a break

Recently I've been facing this problem where people ask me a question, i give them the right answer, then they doubt me. I mean, if you don't believe me, why ask? And what's most annoying is that they will ask someone else who gives the same answer before they will willingly accept that you gave them the right answer. Okay, not willingly, but reluctantly in some cases. The point is that, if you want to ask for a second opinion from someone else, do it nicely. Don't doubt the person who's trying to help you, especially not in such a rude manner! It's annoying to receive it two days in a row and now I really wonder what's wrong with everything.

I'm going to study for CSIT soon! 1 project and 1 test down, happy :>
And today a little mishap happened, my contact lens got stuck in the eye and couldn't come out. ): I not sure whether it's still in there or not!

CAN'T FIGHT THIS FEELING (Reo Speedwagon)

I can't fight this feeling any longer. 
And yet I'm still afraid to let it flow. 
What started out as friendship, 
Has grown stronger. 
I only wish I had the strength to let it show. 

I tell myself that I can't hold OUT forever. 
I said there is no reason for my fear. 
Cause I feel so secure when we're together. 
You give my life direction, 
You make everything so clear. 

And even as I WANDER, 
I'm keeping you in sight. 
You're a candle in the window, 
On a cold, dark winter's night. 
And I'm getting closer than I ever THOUGHT I MIGHT. 

And I can't fight this feeling anymore. 
I've forgotten what I started fighting for. 
It's time to bring this ship into the shore, 
And throw away the oars, forever. 

Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore. 
I've forgotten what I started fighting for. 
And if I have to crawl upon the floor, 
Come crashing through your door, 
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore. 

My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you. 
I've been running round in circles in my mind. 
And it always seems that I'm following you, girl, 
Cause you take me to the places, 
That alone I'd never find. 

And even as I wander, 
I'm keeping you in sight. 
You're a candle in the wind, 
On a cold, dark winter's night. 
And I'm getting closer than I ever thought I might. 

And I can't fight this feeling anymore. 
I've forgotten what I started fighting for. 
It's time to bring this ship into the shore, 
And throw away the oars, forever. 

Cause I can't fight this feeling anymore. 
I've forgotten what I started fighting for. 
And if I have to crawl upon the floor, 
Come crashing through your door, 
Baby, I can't fight this feeling anymore.

Killer week

Fri: FEM Proj Submission, Acc Test
Sat: CSIT Test
Monday: Culinary Theory Test
Tuesday: CRSpa Project Submission
Friday: CSIT Project Submission

Omg, all the heavy projects, I foresee an extremely stressed week ahead.
Thankful for this coming weekend, going for CSI with 6teen and shopping for CNY clothes. Gosh I need a breather so badly.

Something inside says: Will I make it through this semester happy? I can't help feeling I will do really badly this semester, I want to cry :'(

Hospitality and Tourism Management

Been working hard over my projects and now here I am wondering why I have decided to join this course. I guess it's the opportunities that have presented itself to me, and it's really the reason for me to hang in there to see how this industry is like. I've actually identified two opportunities that really made me look forward to the industry.

ITB Asia
Being part of the student group helping out in the biggest trade show for the industry in Asia is no joke. There were many real challenges that we often talked about, but never faced, such as handling difficult delegates, preparation for the show, and how an event is planned. Being behind the scenes, I see the hard work that's being put in to make the show a success. Words cannot fully describe what I felt throughout the experience of working in ITB asia, but I'm glad I was a part of it.

Housekeeping Mentoring Program
I first knew about this programme when I was looking through my TP email where I received something from one of my teachers, and it was a gut instinct actually, to sign up for this programme. I guess because the section of housekeeping was the first one that motivated me to join the industry of hospitality. When I was in secondary 3, my one-week attachment as Ascott's group of serviced apartments in the housekeeping section opened my eyes to the sector and I was deeply interested. Also, I wanted to know more about the behind-the-scenes of a hotel industry. So without hesitation, I decided to sign up for the programme. To my surprise, I was selected by Four Seasons and I was looking forward to the programme!

At first I did not know what to expect, but the executive housekeeper, Ms Doris Leong was kindly talked us through the programme, and planned something for us everyday.
Day one
We were attached to one of the housekeepers to do a time and motion study, where we were to breakdown the tasks that the housekeepers were supposed to do, and time them. Other than this study, we also had the chance to see what was being offered in the hotel, such as the amenities and how the rooms looked like.
Day two
Reporting for the night shift, we had the opportunity to learn what turndown service was all about. I was new to this term and did not know what is it really about. Well it's basically a gesture from the hotel to make the bed ready for sleep, and to dim the lights such that it's a conducive environment to sleep in. It's really an eye-opener for me.
Day three
I was attached to Daphne, one of the supervisors, who went around the hotel to check on the check out rooms, to see if they were ready for check ins for the day. Then we also learned about the daily duties of a supervisor.
Day four
My partner and I were split up for the day, for the first half I was in the Laundry department where I learned about the operations, and then for the later half I was with the public area supervisor, where i was brought around to the public areas, such as the swimming pool, the club and the function rooms to ensure that they are all well maintained and clean.

The staff of FSHS were really friendly and they were all very willing to share their knowledge of their job scope with me. I was really grateful to them and it was the warmth of the staff that made me enjoy this experience so much.
After exposure to this programme, I had a deeper level of understanding about the back-of-house operations of the hospitality industry and I really felt that the department of housekeeping are the group of unsung heroes that are crucial to creating part of the product of the hotel. This experience is invaluable and it made me consider another field of the hospitality as my future career path. It is a programme that I would definitely introduce to my juniors to take up, to get a better idea of the operations of a hotel. It may not be a bed of roses, but it's definitely something to enrich his/her experience in the hospitality industry.

Open House Performance

Well, so open house performance has finally come to an end. To the juniors, it's just the beginning of their journey in Salvo. For us, well, I just can't believe that I only have around a year left in Salvo. It's really disappointing and upsetting to know that.

Ah, but I'm glad I didn't make the wrong choice in joining Salvo, otherwise I wouldn't have met all the wonderful people in my life now :>

So after debrief and playing, we went to 85 to makan which was yums! Yay I've got eating buddies, so I can eat all the awesome food and not get fat heehee :D got stingray, orh lua, carrot cake, bah chor mee and chicken wings. It's not as fattening as eating all on my own haha (:

Right, I have to chiong my culi and CRSpa project before heading out to meet Mum and Dad. Toodles :>

Fears

Almost everyone who knows me well enough know I have all kinds of fears and phobias. And today, it just so happened that there were four shocks that happened to me in less than three hours. Let's just say I have a weak heart ):

Well it all happened during performance rehearsal for open house tomorrow and on saturday. I was moving the drums up the staircase when I slipped. It all happened very quickly and it was really sheer luck that Smay was in front of me holding the drum that almost fell and Bryden came to get the drum from me. It was really lucky that no one else was in front of me or the drum would have fallen on him on her and I would never ever forgive myself.

Then, it was the rehearsal on the stage, and oh the horrors it was on an elevated stage near the mushroom in TP. What was horrifying was that on my side of the stage, the edge was above a ledge, which, simply put, would mean that if anyone was unlucky to fall off the stage, it would be falling off a height of around two storeys. Given that I was extremely afraid of heights, I started shivering uncontrollably and started crying. Many thanks to everyone who came beside me during my panic attack, but yes I was really afraid to even go near the edge. Trust me, I couldn't utter a proper sentence while on that stage because it was so scary. I literally heaved a sigh of relief when I got down that stage. Truthfully speaking, what was the organising committee thinking, erecting that stage on such a dangerous platform? Couldn't they realise that if someone were to fall off the edge, it would mean serious injury? I don't know, I'm just pretty afraid of being up there for the next two days.

The next two shocks were less bad, one was misunderstanding that a drum was falling off its tiers when it was actually someone carrying it back down to the studio. And the other one was almost falling off the drum while practising the ending pose. 

I'm sorry that I don't have the guts to stand on the drum, and not especially if the drum is going to be on that stage. Cut me some slack please, I'm already trying my best :'( 

Was feeling really upset over the episodes today. Well, as Bryden told me, tomorrow's going to be better. Hopefully. (:

Hello 2011

Decided on starting this new blog for the new year! It's too cumbersome mixing up my personal posts and reblogs on tumblr, and I just felt like starting afresh on a new blog, sort of a moving on to a different phase in life where I am eighteen! The previous blog's not all gone, it's still here. I don't like to delete blogs, it feels like deleting a part of me. (:

Start of the brand new year, spent with an awesome group of people, people that eats without stopping and are sure to clear up your kitchen in a flash. Ate a hill of food for steamboat at Bugis, watched the stunning fireworks against the Marina Bay skyline, and a night of talking and playing along One Fullerton. Had a lot of thoughts running in my mind when I was watching the fireworks. Isn't it amazing how the fireworks create patterns in the sky, just like how excitement and joy explodes within us? Okay I'm thinking a little too much about fireworks, but yeah that was basically how I felt. I could feel all those little joy bubbles popping within me as I was watching the fireworks!

As usual, new year, new resolutions!
Stop procrastinating (I resolve to do this every year, but… I’ll just put it at the top as usual :D)
Spend less, save more.
Eat less, lose more. (weight I mean :P)
Study hard, see improvement in results
Having more constructive thoughts and stop thinking of…unnecessary thoughts that often (:
Be a nicer person in many ways 
Less vulgarities
Anger management


Hopefully, I'll be able to stick to them this year hurr.
Anyways, just realised there are 5 submissions and 3 tests this month. Well I guess I'll have to tough it out, as I always have! (: Not to forget, the performance for Open House this Friday and Saturday! Feeling really excited about it though it's my second open house performance, hopefully everything goes well, and all the best to the juniors who are performing for the first time (:

Woah, this is a long opening post I guess. It's really time to sleep, it's going to be a loooooong day tomorrow :D